89 days since I got here...with some days spent in .... Bruxelles ... Bucharest ... Campina ... theoretically on the emotional curve of adaptation to a new life, I should start going up...I should be over the period of home sickness .... to be honest I think is more like an up-down game...now I'm up now I'm down...
" So don't fight it
Life is a Roller-coaster
Just gotta ride it"
....as friend Ronan is singing....and it is true! now I feel that is true...life is about choices you make ... I got in this roller-coaster and I need to ride it not to fight it!!
...I realized it was a good choice to come to England...I am in an environment the shakes me a lot...it makes me live based on my principles more then I ever did before...trust, freedom, honesty and family-including friends are the things that I am living everyday at work or outside of work....I don't feel fulfilled 100% but don't I want too much from the beginning? don't I want everything without too much effort? I think I do and I won't be getting anything without effort...yes life it is like a casino, you can win very easy or you can lose...one thing you need to do for sure - TO PLAY!...
I took the choice to play! no matter how much it hurts ... I might lose sometimes but for sure at the end I am going to win...I will win a life with fulfillment and joy...I have a great opportunity to learn a lot...to stretch myself more than a "modelino" toy...and I am eager to do it...
I had two choices: COMPLAIN and behave like a "pity me" or SEE THE POSITIVE side and live in PRESENT...no future no past...I am choosing to enjoy every moment as it might be the last... to keep close contact with the people are dear to me and to stay true to myself...
at the end of the day what I have is life, thoughts, emotions...DREAMS! why letting myself eaten by the materialistic egoistic monster when I can dance on the rhythm of life every day... dreaming that one day I will be able to provide the stage and the music for the other to dance....
I choose to dance , gamble and ride the life roller-coaster!
2 comments:
You took the right decision. I wish you a lot of good luck!
Don't give up! :) and maybe in the end you might come up to the conclusion that you want to stay more in England ;)
Pup,
Moru
sometimes music does so much better than words.
beb i hell do not know what to say or advise, but here are the lyrics i am listening right now while i am smoking one of the cigars you gave me:
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I�m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I�m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it�s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
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3 doors down - here without you.
i wish you knew how much u girliez mean to me...
pox...
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