Another day is gone...a day with lots of emotions and intense moments...I had a strange dream...about a person I don't really know but keeps on getting in my life....he was all alone in the desert...it felt lonely and scared,confused and meaningless...in this dream I felt I am in his skin....it is strange and I hope in the real life he is better...I woke up and felt really strange...for a second I wasn't sure if is real or not, if it is morning or evening....it confused me and made me want to know what's up with him...but I am fearing to call or ask...it sounds too crazy...
...one of the thoughts I had is that I need to be happy of the life I have... to enjoy! ... the same day I had a discussion with one very dear friend to me.... was it a coincidence that we started a conversation about the topic of life and living in present?...well...
"I have different feelings lately...I don't know ...because of going back home,what will I find there,how will the people be, what am I going to do from now on....everything is very very confusing and it gives me different feelings..." by looking at the text I realized that the pattern is a future thinking..."will" and not now.... again I am thinking of how much we live in the past and future....we skip enjoying the present........it is like people that take so many pictures that they forget to stop and admire for a second...most probably when they see the pictures they don't remember that they were there...they discover the places they have been through pictures...they have snapshots not memories....
why do we stop enjoying ... why do we give soo much control to our mind? why do we forget to be a kid and enjoy every second? I remember when I was a kid I was doing what I felt when I felt...there was hardly any tomorrow or yesterday... I was watching the clouds how they form shapes, I was looking at the rain falling on the window... everything was full of life and colourful...why not doing the same now??
by thinking too much we create expectations and imagine a lot...in case it is not working we are disappointed ... the whole process from creation to final result is sometimes painfully...we fear and get Soooo many questions that we get confused...why not stop and go back to the roots? simple life, where we do what we like and enjoy every second... listen to the people in the buss and smile....they talk crazy things but important for them...count the lines of the zebras on the street...in my home town , most of them have odd number of lines, mostly between 7 and 15....
why not getting an ice cream and take a walk in the park...watch the flowers and see the kids playing they are soooo happy!! some of them are crying as they lost in the game..they express emotions and live in the present ... on a bench you see an old men reading a newspaper...looking in his eyes they are full of light...still I am wondering what is in his head...he sees you and gives a smile....
I feel good to give freedom to myself from time to time...to stop building illusions, but enjoy what it is now....
at the end of the day....what is life?"It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset."Crowfoot
What is life? "It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset".Crowfoot
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