Purpose in everyday life....

another week passed by...since I am here I realized how intense my life is, and I started to identify my emotions much easier. If during the weekend I am feeling peaceful and good, this week was the worst so far...

...lack of concentration and energy, lots of questions running through my head ... loneliness and apathy... once again I realized how important social life is for me.Not only in private but as well at work.I don't understand why people refuse to stick together and use a collective power of mind and put their efforts together with others...

I still believe that "where there are 2 people the strength/power is bigger". I was used to work in teams all the way through a project...with ups and downs, with fights and celebrations I was always striving together with somebody else...now I find myself in the challenging environment where I need to do the things myself and what is the bad part is that I don't have anybody to challenge the way I see the things, to build on my ideas and to open my mind....

I feel I am going through an intense experience and I feel I get more mature....by being a part of a multinational I see that this is NOT what I want to be a part of for the future...I am still dreaming of my Kindergarten and Summer Camps projects and I will do my best to have them!

Sometimes I ask myself why life is it going so fast? why do we need to grow up and never be able to have the restless time and no worries ... to have courage and desire to DREAM and do things that we are not used to....to be honest I am afraid...what comes up - more responsibilities, less time, less courage and not too much dreaming... - I am afraid to get trapped in the system ... in a life without meaning and fulfillment ... and everyday I am trying to find a way to connect to myself and find my purpose....

oh well is not easy ... but it keeps me running to get closer to an understanding of myself and my own dreams....and I am sure I will find my way!